放

不属于我的幸福
不再执著

不属于我的想念
不再奢求

不属于我的天空
不再翱翔

不属于我的一切
不再奢望

随笔

想有个人懂
想有个人理解
懂就好
理解就好
给予支持就好
不要任何的意见
往往得到的意见都是我不想听到的

很多都会自以为了解
很多都会觉得其实很容易解决
只是我在钻牛角尖
很多都会觉得是我想得太多
很多都会觉得我想的不是必然

想说
你不是我
你不懂我想的是什么
说了 你只会说我把情况严重化
其实 你不懂我要的是什么

曾经以为有谁真的会懂 真的会理解
把情况倾诉了
想得到安慰
得到的 却是伤害
不再奢望能有谁真的会懂 真的会理解
唯一的解决方法还是须靠自己

交待？

活在一个“人”的世界
什么都要向“人”交待
有点累了
想什么原因都不给
就这样 就这样

16 May 2010

又是一个谧静的夜晚
想说 不要等到失去后才懂得珍惜

Learning

Learning to believe on my own ability
Learning to be confident to myself
Learning to enrich my skills
Learning to enrich my general knowledge
Learning to be a responsible girl
Learning to chase after some dreams
Learning to be a better me...

Days past

Tiring week, but in the same time is a meaningful week.
Learning everyday, improving everyday... Though already back from the course, I am still looking at the codes, learning as much as possible i could, so that i able to catch up everything the trainer teach in class. What makes me tension and pressure is my "classmates" are those experience programmers who already have a very strong programming background. Anyhow, i just try my best, squeezing my brain to catch up them...

I feel so surprise to know such a great trainer who emphasizes on the quality plus willing to share, willing to teach. Even though I always ask for some silly questions, he never angry to explain everything to us... He always tell us, dun have any question is a silly question, if not understand, just ask... I am really appreciate on what he did. He makes me comfortable to bring out my question if i m not understand or not clear with somethings. Possible for me to become as good as him one day? ^_^

Feeling better with my new MacBook Pro now, getting used to it dy...starting to feel its convenient, starting to fall in love with it... haha...

Repeating a song recently again. Is a English Song -- La Roux -- "Cover my eyes"... Really a nice song, at least for me... keep on repeating the same song again and again... I can feel the peace in it... just listen and feel...

No wonder I'm scared
To look in your eyes
You've turned me away
So many times
You can take it away
At any given moment
It's hard to believe
While you're in this disguise

So would you hold me please
I'm trying hard to breathe
I'm just surviving
So would you hold me please
I'm trying hard to breathe
Stop me from crying

When I see you walking with her
I have to cover my eyes
(I have to cover my eyes)
Every time you leave with her
Something inside me dies
(Something inside of me dies)

No wonder it hurts
To sit by your side
(Turned me away so many times)
There's a different song
I can play you tonight
(We don't have to sit here in silence)
We can break the pattern
We can change the colour
(It's just a little sacrifice)
You don't need to worry about the others
(It's all in your mind)

So would you hold me please
I'm trying hard to breathe
I'm just surviving
So would you hold me please
I'm trying hard to breathe
Stop me from crying

When I see you walking with her
I have to cover my eyes
(I have to cover my eyes)
Every time you leave with her
Something inside me dies
(Something inside of me dies) x3

基督路上的成长开启

基督路上的成长，
想了很久， 终于鼓起勇气启动了

很奇妙的，星期三时遇到了处境差不多一样的人
有点安慰，至少知道这个世界上并不是没人懂
可能上帝听到了我的祷告
把他送过来了

举棋不定
祷告了
我想，被听到了吧
突然之间，没在计划里，
问了一位有经验又信得过的前辈
加上没有回复的电邮
我觉得，那该是答案吧！！！

感恩。。。


有天，带宁到布道会
我猜想她一定觉得我傻了
但，没关系
我自己知道就好。。。

前途茫茫

前途茫茫
不知前方的路该怎么走

冷静不下来

现在的心情是蠢蠢欲动的
很想跑到MPH去买一本书。。。
好冲动啊。。。
又很想去。。。手痒痒了。。。