wl be all right

again...

anyway...

learn to be strong... i know...

To Me

在接下来的日子或许不容易，但你要坚强。。。

love to share out

Was chatting with a colleague just now... We talked about marriage.
He said 90% of the women want to get married. Then I told him I also want to get married...

For me, family, husband and children are very important. They will be my treasure, they will be my motivation...

I also told him, everyone of us got a lot of love, we need to share out our love then only meaningful... for example, my boss and his boss, they are single ladies, you will find that they very care about their nephew and niece... they also need someone for them to love to, they also got a lot of love can be shared out...

I also shared that, for me, got the balance between family and work only consider as "LIFE"... when you are happy or you success in something, if you do not have someone for you to share with, the happiness level wont increase and meaningless...



The moon today is so round and so bright
is that the same in your city?

night night, the world...

broke down (car)

My car broke down in the middle road just down, temperature up to "H" level, got smoke come out from my bonnet some more... wow... first time facing such situation...

I was panic at first, as I think I will block others way and there was so crowded and hardly find any place to park my car... Then I parked my car beside the road...

I take it as a challenge from God. I didn't cry, just be tough and positive... At least today is a cloudy day, not so hot. At least today is not a raining day, wont get rained. haha... God gave me challenges but at the same time He still very care of me, providing me such a good environment for me to go through the challenges...

I told my mum that my car got some problems few days ago, but I do not have time to fix it. Plan to fix it today... Mana tahu... is ok, at least I learnt a lesson.

I called a mechanic for help, but he is not available to come over to help me... Then my friend helped to call for another mechanic for me... yearh~~~ solve!!!
Thanks friend ^_^

Happy for you

I know you are gone
glad that you are all right
glad that you are released
glad that you move forward

I am all right as well...

at least I think I was doing great in handling this
at least I did not play you like a cat play with a string roll
at least I didn't hold you back

I understand that is kind of empty when you have no one to miss on
I do understand, I do
but dear, you will find yours
I know you are doing better than I do, you are

Thank you for everything you did...

I am moving forward as well
Don't forget I am strong

I am all right
I will be all right ^_^

my working life so far...

I started to get used to the environment
started to be independent
started to be smart
started to handle job properly

My colleagues all are male
some quite rude
always playing with rude words in their mouth
but they are friendly
very super friendly
helpful as well
always help me as much as they can
Glad that they never look down on me
but in other way
help and explain to me in almost every aspect

Admire the way they work
so professional
they treat every single big and small issue seriously
They can do so many things in a day
once promised, they will definitely do it
wow...

insane

My here was raining heavily 2 days ago
Was driving and thinking of you
How about your city there?
Is that same as mine?
what are you doing there?
Is that everything all right?
Will you do the same as what I did?
definitely not, as no people will as insane as me (:$) including you

I want to tell you, if you are there,
I am missing you in this rainy day
I want to tell you, if you are there,
the sky is crying because of missing you as well...

The coming period might be hard
because of you
I will be tough and strong
I want you to feel proud of me

God loves us before we know Him
I would like to love you before I know you as well

mix

i don't know what are u talking about most of the time
i m speechless most of the time

bad day past
a sunshine day should come
should

going off to Bintulu soon
but the time not fix yet
who is going to miss me?

went to eat sea park nasi lemak alone just now
first time alone there
not that bad

want to take my shower now
tired
need to work some more later

met an uncle and a teenager today
tried to bomb me
but i do not have any feeling
i m not that naive

changed
ya
you are right
is a good news
or bad news?

life is not that hard
once you taste down
only you appreciate up

o(>.<)o

kind of messy...... >.<|||

u never know

feeling like crying
but i know i cant let my tear drops any more
cant
just cant

go away

i do not know how long i would sustain with this situation
i know
be tough
be strong
again
ya
tell myself
ya
i am ok
ya

i really do not want to sit in this house any more
anyway
i have to
be tough
challenge it
face it
ya
should be
ya

monday

i really do not like this kind of feel at all...
i do not like this kind of situation as well...

only do such silly silly minor minor things... how stupid it is...
angry feeling start to burn in my heart
angry to myself...
i know i am much more capable than this...
totally crap...

stupid + silly

only can wait command to do something........................................................................................................ u must be kidding........................................................................................whole picture??? come on...................................................

zzz

Feel so tired recently... Need to have a long long good good quality sleep... i am not a big :p

Feel so sayang for a gal I met before... Sayang that she gave up the chance to change, sayang that she did not appreciate this opportunity, sayang that she just got thought about that but never try to step out the first step...

I think, human is the most complicated animal in the world... Some so naive, some so cunning, some so pure, some so polluted... so complicated... no matter how pure or how naive of a human is, never fully believe anyone... lies appear everyday, every hour, every minute, every second... fly over the sky, fly over the air...

spend a lot of money recently... pouring out my money like the water in waterfall, fast & much... blah blah blah... the difference is, water in waterfall never going to the end, but my money is going to the end soon... will become a money-empty zm soon...

so tired... wan zzz dy... night night....

hehe...

she is powered up herself...
did 3 mistakes today, but is ok... learning process...
every tomorrow will be a better tomorrow...
Be concentrate...
Use brain to think, to understand...
She could be a fast learner as she was before...

rojak...

enjoying time in home... online, washing clothes, reading newspaper, showering, listening to songs, blogging... tee... ^_^

my boss told me tomorrow will start to have heavy work load, asked me to take enough rest...

I like to say something randomly, but many people cant follow my fm tuning, always lost connection...

sometimes, too often to put myself in secondary place... ignoring self until forget i myself also have choice, I myself also can say NO, forget to show out own preference...

look at the penguin from S, kind of missing him, long time no see him dy... but is all right...

I remember W said i am pretty with OL wear, that moment, i told myself, i could consider to become an OL... also remember W said he likes to see i am in a serious condition, not in crazy stage, look attractive... haha... wow... my memory is good...

I remember that at the beginning, when i know someone is lying, i was so frustrated, why they want to do that? why they cant be honest? someone told me, they are not lying, they are just not telling the truth...
and now, i realize that... I start to learn to not telling the truth as well...

Met a gal few weeks ago. I am so happy to hear that she is not satisfy with her current condition, she hopes for changes... She wants to change her current life style... She works hard to earn money so that can attend an english class and find other better job... wow... so excited to hear that... hope she appreciate the coming chance ^_^

move move forward

no matter you doubt or you firm
once decided
just move forward
have faith on what you chose

Just move forward

suppose in Terengganu, SEATRU program now
but I am still in company
is ok
for better career
you will gain how much you gave...

add oillll

Hope for a better tomorrow
give myself an encouraging smile ^_^

congratulation to my buddy

Looking at my buddy's wedding photos, I can feel the bless between them...
I remember that my buddy showed to me that he loves his wife a lot lot... ^_^
feel so happy for them...

and this recall me my final destination...
I really do hope that there is something started for my final destination...
however, it is not...
anyway
it will, when there is the timing...

不要在我寂寞的时候说爱我

偶然遇上的惊喜

4.55am

actually hate myself much
hate myself to be such a useless gal

actually would like to say
I am not ok
I am not loving current me at all

i know that is ok for me to be weak
i know that is ok for me to cry
i know that is ok...

actually trying to be strong
actually trying to be positive
actually trying...

finding the way out
i know i will find it...
will...

4.47am

can't waste too much time in struggling, in thinking...
life goes on...

can't waste too much time to heal..
life goes on...

can't waste too much time to be weak...
life goes on...

move on... move on...

4.28am

I know I will be all right...
I know this is not an easy path from the beginning... I know it...

After charging up myself in hometown, I will be all right...
I just need get enough sleep, enough rest, then everything will be all right...

life goes on...

重心错了

因为重心不对了
所有的一切都不对了

重心不对
累了也不知道
累得忘了关怀好多好多的人与事务
真的忘了好多
也没力气
有时候连说话都觉得累
有时候连聆听都觉得负担

所有所有
就是因为把重心放错了地方
得赶快调整
趁还来得及

有些东西
有些时候
就是要取舍

3.20am

Will be sunrise again tomorrow morning
no matter you are sad or you are happy
life goes on...

When you are sad, don't waste your sadness...
use it...
then you will see the difference...

When you scare, face it
then you wont scare any more

life goes on
you complain or you sad
the problem still there
when you face it and try to solve it
it will become easier and lighten

just depend on how you solve the issue

anything that happened,
is because you let it to be happened
you let it
you allow it
so, you since you able to let it happened
you also able to stop it
you also able to disable it
ya, you can...


there are two kinds of people
one, he knows his weakness, then he will just say "I am like that one, I just need to accept me myself"
the other one, he knows his weakness too, he will try to overcome it, he will find out some ways to solve it...
what kind of people you want to be?
i prefer latter
Lord, give me strength...
might face bigger and bigger problem to gain the strength
is ok...
i know i have to...

3.09am

Just read through my friend's blog, in that, he mentioned:
"i know how much i have cried and be sad about.... rather than take the pain away, bless me with the strength to go through this"

Lord, bless me too... Thanks...

2.50am

always trying to be strong
sometimes,
an understanding hug can help

no, no...
just be strong

can't do something unfair to some one
can't do anything that might hurt anyone

2.47am

will back hometown an hour later...
when i m back, i will sleep sleep sleep.....

2.45am

I m not complaining
just disappointed to myself...

self-control should be better
not like now...
useless!!!

I do not want so many things happened
I do not want some situations go into such stage
I just can't help

tired level increasing........................................

2.42am

so tired recently...
empty...
doing nothing always...
confident level drop drop drop...
what an useless girl...
excel in nothing...

I am sorry...
I am sorry...

2.40am

believe me, I do not want to let anybody down...
I really do not want it to be happened...

I am not too harsh to myself
I am just not fully utilize my ability, strength...

could be better...
have to make some changes

I am sorry...

2.35am

一点都不喜欢此刻的心情
不喜欢觉得自己让谁人失望了
可能你会说是我自己要求太高了
其实不是的
是我没有尽力的去做好

重心在哪里呢？
重心不对
什么都不对

想留些时间给自己

努力的去喜欢所做的每一样事情
努力的不去抱怨
每次都说好的，没有“但是”。。。

常常都说 "I am ok"
其实，现在想说 “I am not really ok"。。。

每每遇到问题时，努力地面对
一次又一次
没有乞求谁人的同情

曾经想过
有谁人会了解
有谁人会关心
有谁人会聆听
久了，就懂了
其实什么都没有
迫着自己去面对
要一次比一次坚强

Tiara vs Vios

Finally I have to admit there are some differences between RM500 and RM25... haha...

Last time, i wore RM500 reebok shoes, very comfortable and tahan lama, wear for 4 years only need to change...
I am so poor recently, so I went to Carrefour to buy RM25 sport MEGA POWER shoes. From the outlook, still ok, the quality, i think can't demand that high... What disappointed me is I just wear it for 3 - 4 times, it is starting to show me it got problem of its health dy... =.=|||

I know that next time, I will buy good quality shoes rather than this cheap but useless MEGA POWER sport shoes...

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My boss is very capable, however, she is still single until today. Her partner also another boss, she also same...

My boss told me she used to hire a female who did very well in her company, she also did not get marry.
Then I think, I want to get marry and I think my final destination is to enjoy a very good family with my beloved husband... So I think i must find the balance between career and relationship...

Anyway, the other side still empty... Temporary, dun care first la...

Sleepy again... quite tired recently... Want to write more but brain is not functioning... good night...

+ve attitude

Was doing testing on some equipments in a company in Klang today.

Just to share an incident that happened this noon.
There is one tester doing testing with my partner and I in the company today. At the beginning, we took quite a lot of time to figure out how to do the testing, then the following testing process become easier and faster.
Suddenly, we came an equipment, once we power up it, the whole testing room will short circuit. The tester tried 2 times, then he said he doesn't know how to solve it and he requested a rest and wait for the next more expert tester to solve this issue. My partner also sound like willing to tolerant with him by having a rest. But for me, I was insist and I requested him to disconnect all the wires and reconnect them again, step by step...
As a result, we able to success test on that equipment.

At that moment, I felt happy for myself. Though I am just a fresh graduate and they are experienced engineer, I was able to solve the issue rather than giving up. I think, attitude really very important... and i also very glad that I dare to speak out my opinion and dare to ask while I am not sure about something...

hehe

Went to a training course today. Only my boss and I are ladies in that hall, of course, we become the attraction of those guys there.
When I first walked in, the other boss was so happy to see i m there. Keep calling me "ah moi ah moi"...

By the way, what impressed me is, got one Indian, he approached us. He very surprise to find out that my boss, a lady is the boss of the company, and he also very impressed with my boss quality and experience. Then I told myself, ya, this is what I want, a good and real quality from inner of me myself... Only this will make me feel so proud...

I think in order to achieve such achievement, I need to pay out a lot of time and energy... I see my boss sleeps very less but she does enjoy her life well...

oh no, i m very sleepy now... need to sleep first....

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Seriously, no one is perfect in this world...
I don't like to describe too much about what is going on... but i can tell that I don't like to be used by others...
you can treat me as a fool, but please don't think that i am really is a fool...