Everything all right here.
When I reach LCCT airport, feel like I am so stupid, why I don't know where to check in and where to check in luggage and so on... This is not the first time I been to LCCT, every time, my sister and my friends settled for me everything; Now, I need to do it myself, then only I realize I was so dependent last time...
However, I know that, as long as I am willing to learn and willing to ask, I will find the way out. I asked and tried... ^_^
Never too late to start ^_^
First night in Bintulu. The people here quite friendly and their life style is quite slow motion. I stay in Li Hua Hotel. Quite clean, nice and cheap ^_^... surprise, got wireless connection here... haha...
Tomorrow, I will follow boss to the plant there. Wish that I able to learn and catch up very fast...
Sore throat and my tongue is swelling now. Last two days, even hardly to swallow kuey tiao soup. I guess should be virus infection. Maybe too late and inadequate sleep recently make my body weaker. Hope to recover soon...
Sunday, August 29, 2010
2 e
Talk to a friend today.
I think God cares of her much much. God gave her a very clever brain, good personality, good outlook, seems like so good in most of the things... However, her bf does not appreciate her at all. She cried. She told me a lot lot, like her bf always complaining about her, her bf always goes out to find another girl, like she is never exist...
My poor little girl, you are lovely. God let that guy met such a perfect you. Because of him, you changed, you improved... Did he notice? Did he appreciate? No! No!!! Then, my poor little girl, just let go... God will arrange another better guy for you... That stupid guy is not worth for you to break your heart, he is not worth for you to drop a tear...
Let go, girl...
Don't drop your tear again because of him... he is not deserve it...
Don't ruin your life because of him... he is not worth to...
I think God cares of her much much. God gave her a very clever brain, good personality, good outlook, seems like so good in most of the things... However, her bf does not appreciate her at all. She cried. She told me a lot lot, like her bf always complaining about her, her bf always goes out to find another girl, like she is never exist...
My poor little girl, you are lovely. God let that guy met such a perfect you. Because of him, you changed, you improved... Did he notice? Did he appreciate? No! No!!! Then, my poor little girl, just let go... God will arrange another better guy for you... That stupid guy is not worth for you to break your heart, he is not worth for you to drop a tear...
Let go, girl...
Don't drop your tear again because of him... he is not deserve it...
Don't ruin your life because of him... he is not worth to...
today
Bought myself a handbag last night and Bought a beg for my little apple baby today. Though not very rich, I think is worth for me to buy them ^_^
Once I think of my little apple baby is being protected, feel so happy...
Went to bible study just now. We came over family topic... From the bible study, it reminds me my mistakes for past months... I did something impolite to family members... They just worry and concern about me much, but I was so rude and did not appreciate their love to me... Then xuxu called me just now, phone just past around to dad and mum... I found that they never angry about what I did, they just keep concerning me, loving me, they just want to make sure that their little daughter is in a good condition... Feel so guilty on what I did...
It also reminds me that I have been did not contact my friends for long time already, but my friends still call up to concern me... What a shame...
Thinking about "life" today as well... Refresh back my one week working time... A lot of thought flying surround my brain, but I do not wish to share out yet... Not the timing yet...
Will fly to Bintulu tomorrow... First time outstation... Hope I will learn a lot through this trip... I haven't pack my things yet, after packing my stuff, I still need to do some work before i go to bed... Maybe I can zzZ lot in flight :p
Once I think of my little apple baby is being protected, feel so happy...
Went to bible study just now. We came over family topic... From the bible study, it reminds me my mistakes for past months... I did something impolite to family members... They just worry and concern about me much, but I was so rude and did not appreciate their love to me... Then xuxu called me just now, phone just past around to dad and mum... I found that they never angry about what I did, they just keep concerning me, loving me, they just want to make sure that their little daughter is in a good condition... Feel so guilty on what I did...
It also reminds me that I have been did not contact my friends for long time already, but my friends still call up to concern me... What a shame...
Thinking about "life" today as well... Refresh back my one week working time... A lot of thought flying surround my brain, but I do not wish to share out yet... Not the timing yet...
Will fly to Bintulu tomorrow... First time outstation... Hope I will learn a lot through this trip... I haven't pack my things yet, after packing my stuff, I still need to do some work before i go to bed... Maybe I can zzZ lot in flight :p
Friday, August 27, 2010
thankfulness
Is so lucky for me to become child of God. We become children of God not because of our good works, but because of we are the chosen people... So proud that God chooses me, saves me, loves me, though I am not deserve for it....
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Eternal Flame (Camomile Smile)
Listening to this song recently. Eternal flame... Everyone also got their own burning eternal flame... believe in that...
I like to listen to Camomile Smile version... peace + nice + soft + feel....
The lyrics as below:
Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming?
Is this burning an eternal flame?
I believe it's meant to be, darling
I watch when you are sleeping, you belong to me
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?
Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely, and then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling
[break]
Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely, and then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling
Close your eyes and give me your hand
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?
[break]
Is this burning an eternal flame?
An eternal flame?
(Close your eyes and give me your hand
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?)
I like to listen to Camomile Smile version... peace + nice + soft + feel....
The lyrics as below:
Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming?
Is this burning an eternal flame?
I believe it's meant to be, darling
I watch when you are sleeping, you belong to me
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?
Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely, and then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling
[break]
Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely, and then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling
Close your eyes and give me your hand
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?
[break]
Is this burning an eternal flame?
An eternal flame?
(Close your eyes and give me your hand
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?)
THanks
Today is my 4th-working day in IPD. Still in a blur blur condition but I believe that I able to catch up very fast. I believe...
I believe what I do now is priceless and is worth for me to invest in. Though some of the aspect I am doubting in, but I know that I should move on and learn and grow.
Talk to a senior engineer yesterday. Very happy to received his encouragement. He said I got the same characteristics that he found in his boss and my boss, with these characteristics, as long as I never give up, I no doubt can achieve something...
Last night, I was so tired as I was only slept for 2-3 hours two nights ago. When I drive back home, already around 11.30pm. I accidentally drove my car into a no-way out space. Front of my car was staircase, for human to walk. Back of my car is higher road, the difference height almost equal to the difference height between normal road and road divider, 90 degree. So, is impossible for my car to out from that space.
I put two wood boards to support my car out from that space. Unluckily, my car crashed the boards... I was so desperate that time and I bowed on the steering and cried... In a minute time, I raised up my head, I saw an uncle standing front of me. I swept my tear and went down from my car to ask help from the uncle. And finally, I able to get out from there...
I would like to say, that uncle must be Jesus... No one was around that time, just a minute time, how can suddenly an uncle appeared? I found that non of the houses was opened their gate or even any sound... Another thing is, Only I asked, he helped. He did not approach to me himself, he just stood there, waiting me to come over his side...
Thanks Lord... So touch that you help me...
I know i am stupid enough to drop into that space... but at least I learned....
I believe what I do now is priceless and is worth for me to invest in. Though some of the aspect I am doubting in, but I know that I should move on and learn and grow.
Talk to a senior engineer yesterday. Very happy to received his encouragement. He said I got the same characteristics that he found in his boss and my boss, with these characteristics, as long as I never give up, I no doubt can achieve something...
Last night, I was so tired as I was only slept for 2-3 hours two nights ago. When I drive back home, already around 11.30pm. I accidentally drove my car into a no-way out space. Front of my car was staircase, for human to walk. Back of my car is higher road, the difference height almost equal to the difference height between normal road and road divider, 90 degree. So, is impossible for my car to out from that space.
I put two wood boards to support my car out from that space. Unluckily, my car crashed the boards... I was so desperate that time and I bowed on the steering and cried... In a minute time, I raised up my head, I saw an uncle standing front of me. I swept my tear and went down from my car to ask help from the uncle. And finally, I able to get out from there...
I would like to say, that uncle must be Jesus... No one was around that time, just a minute time, how can suddenly an uncle appeared? I found that non of the houses was opened their gate or even any sound... Another thing is, Only I asked, he helped. He did not approach to me himself, he just stood there, waiting me to come over his side...
Thanks Lord... So touch that you help me...
I know i am stupid enough to drop into that space... but at least I learned....
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
friends
I asked myself a question today: "How many true friends I have?"
Then few people appeared in my mind, MY, Tea, KC, J...
I feel so glad that I still having them ^_^
Some friends, even not really close or contact normally, but i know that, if something happened and i need them, they will stand out to help me...
Thanks Lord for arranging such wonderful friendships for me...
Thanks all the friends for treating me as your friend...
Then few people appeared in my mind, MY, Tea, KC, J...
I feel so glad that I still having them ^_^
Some friends, even not really close or contact normally, but i know that, if something happened and i need them, they will stand out to help me...
Thanks Lord for arranging such wonderful friendships for me...
Thanks all the friends for treating me as your friend...
YP
You know what is YP?
Young Professional!!!
I am YP, call me YP!!! ^_^
haha...
Not only I am, We are!!!
MY is prof in accouting;
KC,R, Tea, J and YL are prof in sale;
Big sis and Jinnies are prof in banking;
ME is prof in ENGINEERING....
wow wow~~~ so proud... haha....
I know that if I able to become a profession in engineering, I definitely will very proud of myself... ^_^
moving toward it... move move!!!
call me YP!!! Yeah~~~
Young Professional!!!
I am YP, call me YP!!! ^_^
haha...
Not only I am, We are!!!
MY is prof in accouting;
KC,R, Tea, J and YL are prof in sale;
Big sis and Jinnies are prof in banking;
ME is prof in ENGINEERING....
wow wow~~~ so proud... haha....
I know that if I able to become a profession in engineering, I definitely will very proud of myself... ^_^
moving toward it... move move!!!
call me YP!!! Yeah~~~
Saturday, August 21, 2010
this is not about respect?
Today not very please with one of my friend... For me, I will think respecting others privacy is very important, further more, your best friend's privacy. Maybe he/she is not your best friend any more, but he/she used to trust you so much then only will show out his/her weakness to you.
Anyway, what I think doesn't mean others also will think in the same way...
And may be I just too sensitive... I wish my friends will keep my sharing or any secret to be a real secret, not make them become a public discussion topic... Thus, I will do the same for my friends...
When I know that friend was sharing out that thing, I feel shock and unacceptable and start to get angry... I used to believe and trust she will be a nice nice and good good friend... Anyway, after sometimes, I discovered that she was doing that with bad intention and someone said that what she shared out wont really hurt the main character in the story... okay, fine... I just hope that this won't hurt the main character, but I know will as I know the personality and characteristics of the main character...
I keep telling myself: don't be so sensitive. She is good. She was not doing that with bad intention..
Anyway, I also know that, for me, I wont share anything that I feel important to her any more... not only her...
keep deeper and deeper.. So what? Who cares?
Sincere friendship? Don't kidding...
Anyway, what I think doesn't mean others also will think in the same way...
And may be I just too sensitive... I wish my friends will keep my sharing or any secret to be a real secret, not make them become a public discussion topic... Thus, I will do the same for my friends...
When I know that friend was sharing out that thing, I feel shock and unacceptable and start to get angry... I used to believe and trust she will be a nice nice and good good friend... Anyway, after sometimes, I discovered that she was doing that with bad intention and someone said that what she shared out wont really hurt the main character in the story... okay, fine... I just hope that this won't hurt the main character, but I know will as I know the personality and characteristics of the main character...
I keep telling myself: don't be so sensitive. She is good. She was not doing that with bad intention..
Anyway, I also know that, for me, I wont share anything that I feel important to her any more... not only her...
keep deeper and deeper.. So what? Who cares?
Sincere friendship? Don't kidding...
share?
actually wish to call family, want to share some good news with them. But i remember their response every time i share. They always will critic and I wonder why they can't feel happy for me and just support me?
I went to a electrical field company last two days, just to visit around there. A senior engineer brought me in there. She brought me in just to let me know the environment of that company. If I feel comfortable with that company, she can help me to apply that company. And actually she owns a company as well, just her company only hire those experience and good people, so, I, as a good for nothing fresh graduate is not qualify to enter her company.
While waiting for someone and something in the company, she explained some electrical power things to me. I never study power things before, i just got some basic for those electrical things. While she explaining to me, I able to catch up in very short time and ask her back some questions. From her reaction, I know she is happy that I able to understand the overall concept so fast. She praised me for understand the basic concept.
In a surprise, she said I can work for her company if I still not able to get any job during end of September. She also told me that if I want to earn some extra money, can take some projects from her, she will pay me. She is also willing to teach me and train me... I feel happy and I see this as a chance to learn...
I wish to share with my family, but I don't know how will they react this time...
I went to a electrical field company last two days, just to visit around there. A senior engineer brought me in there. She brought me in just to let me know the environment of that company. If I feel comfortable with that company, she can help me to apply that company. And actually she owns a company as well, just her company only hire those experience and good people, so, I, as a good for nothing fresh graduate is not qualify to enter her company.
While waiting for someone and something in the company, she explained some electrical power things to me. I never study power things before, i just got some basic for those electrical things. While she explaining to me, I able to catch up in very short time and ask her back some questions. From her reaction, I know she is happy that I able to understand the overall concept so fast. She praised me for understand the basic concept.
In a surprise, she said I can work for her company if I still not able to get any job during end of September. She also told me that if I want to earn some extra money, can take some projects from her, she will pay me. She is also willing to teach me and train me... I feel happy and I see this as a chance to learn...
I wish to share with my family, but I don't know how will they react this time...
Friday, August 20, 2010
hope that i could sleep soundly tonight
Just back from Jeason Ma concert.
From the concert, I got somethings to share with.
Grace is something that we did not deserve it but we get it.
We are not here because of an accident, we are not useless; We are here for certain purposes...
We are special...
Though no body loves you, don't be sad, God loves you...
Crying a lot recently. Showering, driving, reading, thinking, online surfing net...
Come across a phrase: If I were to choose between pain and nothing, I would choose pain. -- William Faulkner
I know that God did not abundant me aside, He sent His messages and encouragement to me through my friends, just my heart is too hard to believe and accept.
Received call from Keng Yin just now. She said she wants to bring me to visit a company tomorrow. See, this is the response of my prayers...
I prayed for my friends before, in these two days, they sent me good news... This also another response of my prayers... Just my heart is too hard...
I have to learn to let go of somethings that I should not hold it on... Learning...
finally, I wish I could sleep soundly tonight...
From the concert, I got somethings to share with.
Grace is something that we did not deserve it but we get it.
We are not here because of an accident, we are not useless; We are here for certain purposes...
We are special...
Though no body loves you, don't be sad, God loves you...
Crying a lot recently. Showering, driving, reading, thinking, online surfing net...
Come across a phrase: If I were to choose between pain and nothing, I would choose pain. -- William Faulkner
I know that God did not abundant me aside, He sent His messages and encouragement to me through my friends, just my heart is too hard to believe and accept.
Received call from Keng Yin just now. She said she wants to bring me to visit a company tomorrow. See, this is the response of my prayers...
I prayed for my friends before, in these two days, they sent me good news... This also another response of my prayers... Just my heart is too hard...
I have to learn to let go of somethings that I should not hold it on... Learning...
finally, I wish I could sleep soundly tonight...
Thursday, August 19, 2010
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Read from somewhere, if we keep ourselves in a negative emotion, we only will make the condition becomes worse. Negative emotion will only attract negative things, human, incidents...
I did not sleep for around 30 hours already. Insomnia... Tear drops every time I think about my sensitive issues, like a silly girl. Ya. I am a silly and useless plus stupid girl here...
When I confront with my friend just now, I tried to show myself in a positive attitude and tried not to let my this damp bad emotion affect my friend. At least I tried, though tear drops again now... At least I tried not to attract more negative things... At least I tried...
I was thinking of writing "ZM is tired" in my facebook status, but, I remember that during STP, we mentioned, is better for us to not to put negative statement or emotion on our facebook status, we should put something happy, nice and encouraging... To glorify God. To let others treasure from that... So, I didn't...
I saw God's works on my friends. Is great that God loves them... I wish those kind of blesses will happen to me as well. Questions appear in my mind... why? Why God just abundant me aside? Am I not worth to love? Where is the peace feel I found before that? Where is the faith I had before?
I learn to be strong, I know I would overcome it... Everything comes with reason, every arrangement got its purpose... May be I don't know about it now, but I will know it one day... one day...
I did not sleep for around 30 hours already. Insomnia... Tear drops every time I think about my sensitive issues, like a silly girl. Ya. I am a silly and useless plus stupid girl here...
When I confront with my friend just now, I tried to show myself in a positive attitude and tried not to let my this damp bad emotion affect my friend. At least I tried, though tear drops again now... At least I tried not to attract more negative things... At least I tried...
I was thinking of writing "ZM is tired" in my facebook status, but, I remember that during STP, we mentioned, is better for us to not to put negative statement or emotion on our facebook status, we should put something happy, nice and encouraging... To glorify God. To let others treasure from that... So, I didn't...
I saw God's works on my friends. Is great that God loves them... I wish those kind of blesses will happen to me as well. Questions appear in my mind... why? Why God just abundant me aside? Am I not worth to love? Where is the peace feel I found before that? Where is the faith I had before?
I learn to be strong, I know I would overcome it... Everything comes with reason, every arrangement got its purpose... May be I don't know about it now, but I will know it one day... one day...
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
u...
Only you will treat me as a precious jewel
Only you will love me without any reason
Only you will care of me while I am a totally useless girl
Only you...
and you make me confuse....
Only you will love me without any reason
Only you will care of me while I am a totally useless girl
Only you...
and you make me confuse....
Thursday, August 12, 2010
silence...
If possible, don't ask me to explain
If possible, don't ask me to tell
If possible, don't ask me why
If possible, don't ask me how
If possible, just don't ask me
If possible, just keep silent...
If possible, don't ask me to tell
If possible, don't ask me why
If possible, don't ask me how
If possible, just don't ask me
If possible, just keep silent...
Lost
More confuse than ever…
Sadly, I am lost…
I am lost inside my own world…
Can’t see the road in front…
How I reach here I don’t really know…
Sadly, I am lost…
I am lost inside my own world…
Can’t see the road in front…
How I reach here I don’t really know…
Friday, August 6, 2010
blur...
I think tonight will be another awaken night again...
I still cant see my future clearly... Feel like I am almost to give up what I wish to pursuit after... Give up and surrender...
Some told me that once we born, responsibility bond to us, and we must do our part for this responsibility sake...
Struggling and struggling and struggling...
family, future, career, friends, self...
headache...
I still cant see my future clearly... Feel like I am almost to give up what I wish to pursuit after... Give up and surrender...
Some told me that once we born, responsibility bond to us, and we must do our part for this responsibility sake...
Struggling and struggling and struggling...
family, future, career, friends, self...
headache...
Uncertainty
Thought already confirm get a job offer from Huawei. Received a call from Huawei yesterday, he mentioned about company internal problem, might won't hire me... Feel the uncertainty...
I think I am getting worry is because I am facing choices again... However, I still cant make up my mind on what I want to be actually... What I want actually??? I don't really have a clear picture of it...
Feel like I am so useless and worthless recently... So weak in so many fields...
I know I have to charging up myself... still wondering about the future... what i want actually???
I think I am getting worry is because I am facing choices again... However, I still cant make up my mind on what I want to be actually... What I want actually??? I don't really have a clear picture of it...
Feel like I am so useless and worthless recently... So weak in so many fields...
I know I have to charging up myself... still wondering about the future... what i want actually???
master convo
3rd Aug 2010
is my master convocation.
For me, I am not really so excited. I thought I am the only one who feel numb about that, who knows, from the conversation with another candidate who was sitting beside me, I found that he also has the same feel... haha...
However, I can feel that my parents are excited and I think they feel proud of me... more than enough already, right?
This year, I did not really inform friends about my convocation. Thinking of keeping low profile? May be :p ~.~
I feel happy to get wishes from friends, at least I know that they are care and concern about me... Thank you very much... muack muack...
is my master convocation.
For me, I am not really so excited. I thought I am the only one who feel numb about that, who knows, from the conversation with another candidate who was sitting beside me, I found that he also has the same feel... haha...
However, I can feel that my parents are excited and I think they feel proud of me... more than enough already, right?
This year, I did not really inform friends about my convocation. Thinking of keeping low profile? May be :p ~.~
I feel happy to get wishes from friends, at least I know that they are care and concern about me... Thank you very much... muack muack...
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