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Read from somewhere, if we keep ourselves in a negative emotion, we only will make the condition becomes worse. Negative emotion will only attract negative things, human, incidents...

I did not sleep for around 30 hours already. Insomnia... Tear drops every time I think about my sensitive issues, like a silly girl. Ya. I am a silly and useless plus stupid girl here...

When I confront with my friend just now, I tried to show myself in a positive attitude and tried not to let my this damp bad emotion affect my friend. At least I tried, though tear drops again now... At least I tried not to attract more negative things... At least I tried...

I was thinking of writing "ZM is tired" in my facebook status, but, I remember that during STP, we mentioned, is better for us to not to put negative statement or emotion on our facebook status, we should put something happy, nice and encouraging... To glorify God. To let others treasure from that... So, I didn't...

I saw God's works on my friends. Is great that God loves them... I wish those kind of blesses will happen to me as well. Questions appear in my mind... why? Why God just abundant me aside? Am I not worth to love? Where is the peace feel I found before that? Where is the faith I had before?

I learn to be strong, I know I would overcome it... Everything comes with reason, every arrangement got its purpose... May be I don't know about it now, but I will know it one day... one day...